With my first child I didn’t have a village to lean on expect my man. I ended up with every bad PPD & PPA. It was a lot for me to handle with a newborn too. I’m so weird the PPD will come back again this time around.
Sounds really overwhelming. I’d just take it slow this time. Maybe swap one feeding at a time and see how it goes. Having someone around for a little backup makes a huge difference.
Is there anywhere in your area where you can meet some other mamas? I can’t tell you what a difference it makes to have other moms to talk to. You might be able to ask your obgyn if there are any preventative measures you can take to prepare just in case. I hope you don’t have to go through it again because I know how hard it is.
It’s scary especially going through it already once! But you at least know what it looks like and what to expect. That could be very helpful but remember even if it does it’s only a season! It passes with time and isn’t forever
Praying for you to not to have ppd and anxiety this time around!