I was freshly postpartum; and as a new mom I was navigating everything all over again. I was constantly crying, trying to pump and figure out life. All my baby did was cry and cry, and it was not only overwhelming, but as a first time mom, it was becoming too much.(we later found out she has cmpa) I would just go sit in the shower and cry it out. One day it became so unbearable, that my brother ended up coming into the bathroom and just holding my hand, while I cried and talked to me. He told me it wasn’t my fault, and that I would get through it. That it’s okay to cry, but don’t let it defeat me, because I’m much stronger than I think and that I’m not doing anything wrong. I’m just new at this. He sat in there awkwardly(the position he was sitting in, on the floor, because the curtain was closed obviously)just holding my hand for a good 30 minutes, while my boyfriend was rubbing my back from the other side of the curtain. I eventually picked myself up and started to look at everything a little better, it took some time, but I’m much better than where I was and I’m so grateful that my brother was there and helped me, even if it might’ve been awkward for him, best little brother ever. lol
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It’s definitely rough in the beginning. I was crying a lot too…it’s so overwhelming at first being a mom. Just know that you are not alone and it will get easier with time. I’m sorry to hear your baby has cpma. I’m glad they helped you through it. Good guys right there!
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I am glad you are doing better momma it is hard those first few weeks. Your brother sounds so supportive and I’m glad he and your boyfriend could be there for you! You’ve got this and you’re doing a great job!
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