I just need to vent a little bit…I’m currently frustrated with just how much needs to get done. The apartment is constantly a mess. I quit my day job which put extra pressure on me to get my art going again. I have an event Friday that I’m working and have to prepare for this week, but I dont know where the time to do so is going to come from. The pediatrician wants us to switch baby boy to his crib, but thats going to require us cleaning and then completely rearranging our bedroom to fit the crib in. My husband is gone working from 5a-9p every day and then still doing more work when he gets home. He’s been coming to bed between 1am and 4am every night for two weeks. So I feel like I need to do it all myself. I don’t know why i have such an aversion to asking for help, but I do. And my son needed the next rotavirus vaccine, so now my immune compromise mother can’t go near him for at least a week. And not to mention I feel a huge need to work on taking better care of myself so I can be mobile and alive to see my son grow up. So I met with a dietician yesterday who came back with a meal plan full of food I don’t like and can’t afford. Her meal plan was over half our monthly budget for food and that was just for my food, not including any formula or any food for my husband.
I just feel so overwhelmed when all I want to do is sleep and snuggle my son ![]()