I Kept Waiting for Someone to Show Up… No One Ever Did 😔 #whatiwishiknew

I wish I had known that being a single mom wasn’t going to be the hardest part. I already knew I would be raising my daughters alone after making the difficult decision to leave my marriage because of domestic violence. What I didn’t know was that I would truly be alone.

My mom passed away just two weeks after I found out I was pregnant. She was my rock and supported me with all 12 pregnancy losses. She wanted to be a grandmother so bad and I know she would have done anything for me and my girls. Her absence is devastating, especially being newly postpartum.

After my girls were born, not one family member came to help. Not one friend stopped by or even called to check on me. I had no visitors while I was in the hospital recovering from my C-section. I kept waiting for someone to show up, and eventually I realized no one was coming.

That realization broke my heart for a while. The newborn stage with three babies has been exhausting, lonely, and overwhelming. Every feeding, diaper change, late-night wake-up, bottle washing, and tear has been on my shoulders. Some days I question how I make it through, but somehow I always do. My girls are my reason to keep going.

Looking back, I realize this journey has changed me in ways I never expected. It has made me stronger, more confident, and more resilient than I ever thought possible. My daughters only know my love, my voice, and my arms, and the bond we’ve built because we’ve been through everything together. It’s something I wouldn’t trade for anything.

To everyone in the Momcozy Community, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You may not realize it, but you’ve become the village I thought I would never have. Your kindness, encouragement, and support have reminded me that family isn’t always the people you’re related to. Sometimes it’s the people who choose to stand beside you. Thank you for helping me feel seen, heard, and never truly alone. :heart:

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:pleading_face: You almost make me cry!! I just can’t imagine how hard it must be for you. When I was reading your post, I just want to come and help you!! I really wish this community can do it in some ways! I’m sure your mother is out there watching you and your girls. I really wish I can do something to help you or to not feel alone. :yellow_heart:

You are a brave mama and you deserve the best!

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You are making me cry! You have got to be one of the strongest mommas and I’m so sorry that you have had to face all of that devastation and loss and that you had to deal with domestic violence. I am so proud of you for leaving that situation that takes alot of strength. I know your momma is watching over you and your girls and is with you everyday. You are amazing for doing it all by yourself and We are here for you whatever you need and I am praying that you find a village that can be there for you and your girls and show up for yall because yall deserve all the love and support in the world. They are so blessed to have such a strong momma and will always know how much you love and protect them!

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You’re amazing! I don’t know how you’re doing it. I hope you can find your village.

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I wish I could give you a bigggggg warm hug!! Just know your mom is with you and your granddaughters always​:folded_hands::heart_hands:t2: you are amazingly strong and brave! Look at you go your doing it and on your own! Wonder Woman forsure​:heart_hands:t2: you got this! And you have three beautiful baby girls! What a blessing :heart_hands:t2::face_holding_back_tears:

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You ARE a SUPERMOM :heart_hands:

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Your girls are lucky to have you. Stay strong, and keep going. Sending you love and support. :heart:

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This made me so emotional i cried! Oh mama first off i know how hard it must have been to walk away and im so proud of you for making that choice I know it must have been even harder with such severe devastation of losing you mom! I just want to hug you and tell you that you are so strong and you have no idea how amazing you are for being so strong! With three newborns too I am fighting for my life with one hahaha but anyway I am so happy you are here in this community! It became my village too and I’m so honored you are apart of that

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This post has been flooded by tears and im joining in. :sneezing_face: Thank you for trusting us with your story. It takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable, and your words are going to comfort so many other moms who might feel isolated right now. Family really is about who shows up, and this community is always going to show up for you. Your girls are growing up wrapped in pure love and ultimate strength. We are so proud to be your village!

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This has me bawling like a baby. I am so so sorry you had/ have to go through this! I just want to hug you right now.

You probably see me on the Facebook groups and if you ever need a friend to reach out to I am ALWAYS available and that goes for any of you other mamas reading this.

I am also a single mom by choice after domestic violence. You are beyond brave and so strong to take on this journey! I love seeing your post and look forward to watching you grow and blossom through this incredible time of your life :heart_hands:t3:

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You are such a testament to your own strength. The love you’ve poured into your girls, even through heartbreak, is a story worth sharing because another mama may need to hear it and know she’s not alone. I’m so sorry for the loss of your mom. I know she would be incredibly proud of the strong, resilient woman and mother you’ve become. Your babies are so blessed to have you. Sending you so much love. You’re doing an amazing job, and I’m so glad you’re here. :brown_heart:

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Awe, thank you so much. That’s so kind of you. You already have helped me by being apart of this community. :two_hearts:. I 100% believe my mom has her hands all over my girls. Like I said, I had 12 miscarriages prior to this pregnancy. I had multiple surgeries on my uterus to repair my major uterine septum and even post-op I continued to have miscarriages. My doctor basically told me that I’m Barron and asked if I wanted to explore other options such as adoption. I told my mom as soon as I found out I was pregnant with my triplets. At the time I was unaware it’s was triplets, I just knew I was pregnant. 2 weeks later she passed away unexpectedly from a massive heart attack and stroke. I had gotten so used to hearing the words ‘I’m sorry. There is no heartbeat’ that I assumed this pregnancy would likely end in loss as well. Every time I would go to my OB during this pregnancy I would just be waiting to hear the bad news. I truly believe the only reason I carried to term was because of my mom. :two_hearts:. I just wish she was here to meet my girls and be the nana she always dreamed of. I’m 100% sure that she is here with us in spirit though and that brings me comfort. :innocent:

I am so incredibly sorry for everything you’ve had to carry, especially while grieving your mom and raising your girls on your own. The strength you’ve shown through unimaginable loss is truly inspiring. Your daughters are so lucky to have a mom who continues to choose love every single day, even when it’s hard. I’m so glad you found a community that reminds you that you don’t have to carry everything alone. Sending you so much love, and I hope you always remember that you’re doing an amazing job​:two_hearts:

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This brings tears to my eyes. I, too, know what it’s like to be in a domestic violence situation and how hard it is to get out of. Then the torment you go through once you leave is so difficult because of all the trauma you’ve been through. Then the losing you mother part :sob: I lost my mom 9 months before I found out I was pregnant. I’m so sorry to hear that. How awful! My mom and I were so close. She was my rock too, and my best friend. Life will never be the same. She always said if I got pregnant that she would move closer to me (she lived out of state), and that she would stay with me for a few months to help me with the baby. I think about her all the time. I would have so loved for her to meet my daughter. I do believe that she lives on through my daughter though. A big part of her is within my daughter, and she will always be with me.

I am so sorry to hear that you are having to do everything alone. I know it must be challenging caring for your 3 beautiful blessings sometimes. I really admire your strength and perseverance! Your daughters are so lucky to have you! I’m here for you any time you want to talk :heart:

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I want to start by telling you, you’re extremely strong, and made the right choice for your daughters. I was tearing up reading this. I’m proud of you for separating yourself from your abuser and removing your girls from having to grow up exposed to dv or potentially go through it themselves. You also have my sympathy regarding your mom. She’s taking care of your angel babies. Life works in strange ways and I’m sure she helped guide you’re daughters to a strong independent woman who deserved 3 healthy babies. It sounds like so much work alone, but it’ll all be worth it. I’d love to be part of your village. I’m willing to give you all the encouragement I can muster. You and your girls will do great things. Motherhood is one of the hardest and one of the most rewarding experiences. You’ll get to see your girls grow up with 3 best friends, their sister, their sister, and their mama. :heart:

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Wow! It always amazes me what women and mothers can do and just wow! Please be so proud of everything you have done!

My husband and I don’t have families (they’re toxic!) so it’s just been me and him and that’s been rough! I can’t even imagine not having his support or help. You’re doing incredible!!

Have you posted which city you live near? If you’re comfortable, I’m sure there are some other mamas in these momcozy communities nearby!

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This is such a raw, vulnerable, beautiful post. These girls are so incredibly lucky to have you as their momma. Your strength and resilience in the way you show up for these babies everyday in every moment is astounding. If I may, speaking on behalf of the Momcozy community, we have got your back. If you ever need to rant, unload, or celebrate any aspect of motherhood or postpartum- the highs and the lows, know we’re here with you!

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